2012

Its here! & my Christmas tree is still sitting in my living room. All the ornaments are off and everything Christmas has been put away but we just havent gotten around to taking the thng down. Something always comes up. So its the plan for this weekend.

But wasnt it pretty? I just love my tree! Since we werent home for Christmas i was in no rush to take it down once we got home. I tried to enjoy it for another week esp through the NY holiday.


NYE was fun. We held a community party and I came up with a game we could play in rounds so the night wouldnt seem to drag on for everyone. It worked....but it was alot of work to keep it going. I didnt get to really relax as much as I could but I made sure to steal a pic of Tim and I, I have one for the last 6 or 7 years I couldnt skip this one.


& I couldnt resist this handsome little guy by the tree. He was so good at the party! Passed out at about 10.


NY Day we were bums. I knew we would be. It was okay.....I just cleaned up from being gone and put away laundry etc. I also made this yummy biscuit ring. Thats right its biscuits baked in a ring with sugar, peans and syrup on top its awesome!


My cutie in his party hat from the night before. I just loved the shot I got of him last year so it maybe a little tradition too ;)


As for Christmas it was a good one. Of course not everything went smooth when you travel and mix families. AT caught a litte stomach bug the night bf we came home but handled it like a trooper in the car. Bless his heart. Thankfully it didnt make its rounds though. Santa was good to us all. I got a new camera, a few pandora beads and some gift cards. AT got all he asked for and of course it was truly too much. Tim got a few tools and just enjoyed his family. What more could we ask for?

As for 2012? I have hopes that this year is better for me. Last year was so emotional and Ive worked through some of it. I still want to share my story and I will. I had many hurt feelings in 2011 from family and friends that really shocked me and Ive had to work through and just adjust to some things never being the same as they once were and growing from it. Trying to build up other thngs in our life as much as I can. If all the emotional toll wasnt going on I think turning 30 wouldnt have been so hard.

Id like to add to our family soon. I have plans but of course they are sooner than what Tim wants. But at least we are in the same year in our thinking ;) Thats something.

But I went into January - my least favorite month with a new attitude and feeling refreshed. & I proclained that 2012 was going to be a good year! Lets hope I can make that a reality!


& as always - stay tuned!

Happy New Year to All!

Christmas Background!

So I need a Cmas post right? Well I geuss this is it.

Christmas is almost here, we are leaving for OH on Thursday to spend the holiday there. Fun times Im sure.

But then again Im not so sure. Underlying issues that of course I havent talked about much this year and AT is truly a terror. No one believes me. Oh they'll soon know! He argues, he doesnt listen, he is just a barrell of monkeys these days. Lucky us right?

Oh you'll say "He's only 3!" Yeah well 3 is WAY worse than 2 can ever be. Im beside myself on what to do. Timeout doesnt work, Santa threats dont work, popping doesnt work, yelling doesnt work, a calm steady voice doesnt work. I PRAY that it is a phase. Beacuse otherwise Tim and I will have the worst vacation ever and we cant wait! :( Its been that bad.

So Im SO glad for 2011 to go and wish it farewell! It has been such an emotional year for me, I just want to start fresh. Or at least try. I dont like the winter at all but maybe I can find a few house projects to keep me busy. So if im not back by Cmas or NYE....which by the looks of things is true. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and yours!

We're Knee Deep Into Fall

Visiting pumpkin patches


Enjoying the last of the 2011 boat rides with a warm drink in hand.


& our shades on :)


McQueen made it on our pumpkin this year.


Its been quiet. & thats okay. Since we returned from the beach:
*We hosted AT's 3rd bday party for his friends and family
*Chummed it up with our neighbors for the 1st annual community block party
*Hit up the Fair with the besties adn the kiddos
*Celebrated our 6th anniversary
*Attended what all Davidson county residents must - The Lexington BBQ Festival
*& nursed a small stomach bug that made its course through the 3 of us.
Well that list doesnt look quiet but it is.....nothing major just a few things here and there.

It seems like life never slows down for us anymore. & when it does we just take it all in and try to enjoy every minute of it.

We have lots of house chores we want to get accomplished around the house over the next few weekends but they are already looking packed! Tim & AT may get their first Daddy/Son event this weekend. I have my fingers crossed, its time! Plus Id love a dinner out with a girlfriend.

Ive found myself struggling more and more with living away from my friends. Esp K. Life has changed so much for both of us we just cant seem to make many gtg or phone calls work. Or the traveling part of it really puts a damper on things. Id love to be able to babysit L at the drop of a hat but I just cant and it makes me sad. I feel like Im missing out on so much with her when I know how close K was to AT when he was that age. We met and had a long talk about it and have vowed to try and do better and that we want our friendship to work and last. So we're trying. I guess thats all you can ask for.

Fall is gorgeous out our way of course and there is tons to do outside so we'll continue to enjoy that until the cold brings us inside. Family gatherings planned for the holidays of course, and an OH trip for Cmas. I hope it goes better than our July trip did.

I know its been a downer around here and well its been a mixed summer for me. Ive had good times and bad times. Mostly dealing with my inner deamons. Im not finished with the story Im well aware of that. I may regret it for mentioning this but things with my IL havent been the best either, Im sure as it always does things will come to a head bc if anyone knows me I can only take so much bf I blow. Things will be taken the wrong way and blown out of proportion and Ill look like the idiot so I just hold my tougue for now. We'll see how the next visit goes.

Onward - I go onward. Im still kicking ass in the basement. Not losing a ton of weight but really toning up. I see muscles that Ive never had before. Im dreaming of another baby......getting closer to that! My baby is getting bigger, older, and mouthier. & God love him hes just getting whinier and worse at the age of 3. WHY?? I feel like Im mean to him all the time. This too shall pass. I give an inch and he wants a mile. I just want to bottle what we had a year ago. Then I feel guilty about dreaming about another baby that I can do it all over again with. Mothers never are free of guilt. This I undertand.

So Ill stop rambling. That was a decent update. Happy Fall Ya'll!

Random

You know how you save pics that you want to talk about but they dont merrit their own post?

Well here are a few of mine ;) & granted they are MONTHS old! But oh well.

I cut of my hair......but its even shorter now than in this pic. This was 2 cuts ago......but hey Im loving the shorter look!


AT has found a new spot to veg out after dinner pre bath. Not allowed on my bed bc hes a tazmanian devil we made a spot on Daddy's blanket!


Finally the cabinets in the laundry room are up! Lots of reorganizing going on :)


& Im all moved in my new office. Chose a nice landscape print to gaze into. Its a seasonal one.....Ive already changed it over to fall.



Beached the pontoon to listen to some live music. Again this was back in June. Sue me....

Ive been awful lately I know.....other thing occupying my time. I have a TON of pics to post. NYC, OH and just stuff in general. & then again maybe this summer wil just go unnoticed and Ill start fresh this month. Nothink wrong with that right?

Happy Fall Y'all!!!!

Moving? Again?

In a perfect world. Everytime we come back from Hilton Head Island I dream a little bit about just picking up and moving to my favorite spot on the map. The home prices are pretty much the same its just the "job" problem ;) Which for Tim it may become a problem next month. We're holding our breath on that.

But then I tell myself its even farther away from everyone than we are now. & if no one comes to see us now for whatever reason its only going to make it worse. But what about US? What about our happiness? Sure friends and family make us happy but sometimes the feeling I get while Im on that beautiful island I want to just last forever. I guess there is always next year.

But Tim did say if the stars aligned for us "hell yeah" he would move down there. Maybe one day I guess. Not so sure i can wait till my retirement years to see this peice of magic everyday.

Blame me? I think not!

3 - Three very full years of memories. I dont think I could feel more blessed to have such a beautiful healthy little boy who makes me smile and laugh EVERYDAY! Pinching myself....how did we get so lucky! Happy 3rd bday sweet boy! Your celebrations continue with a family party next weeekend.


As expected the birthday beach trip was a success and a blast. We relaxed, swam, played in the sand, cooked out on the patio, walked around and window shopped, took in sunsets that will last a lifetime and continued a family tradition that I hope will be passed down for generations to come! But man were we tired on the way home?!

A Mere 10 Days from Now

My BABY will be 3!!!

How does it happen? I know I know I say it every year but each year I marvel at him. & miss what he was the year bf but ache for what he will become over the next year.

Sometimes Id swear he skipped "2" and went to 3 six months ago. He still shows signs of his baby side and I soak them all in. Like Monday night he had a run in with one of my 8lb dumbells. Busted bloody lip the whole bit. Cried and cried, calmed down and then just laid there and hugged my neck telling me he needed his daddy too.

It was such a tender moment that I stop and remind myself that things may not be moving as fast as I think they are. Ill take the baby steps for as long as he'll give them to me. I say it all the time but there are no words for what that light brown hair, hazel eyed little boy means to me.

So for now we have a little family trip planned to Hilton Head Island for a long weekend. Back to where it all started. Such a special place for the 3 of us. But if youve followed the east coast news the last few weeks its hurricane season, and there is another one out there I have my eye on.

Our trip may occur bf it even decides where its going to go. Oh well we'll make the best of it. I just want to be with my favorite guys on the 9th of Sept anyway. Who can blame me....theyre pretty damn special.

* Ill give a 30 update soon enough.....right now things are still settling in for me. Im still dealing with a few things, this too shall pass.

IL are coming in for the holiday weekend, I see a boat and some water in the near future. & maybe an IKEA trip. Sounds like a solid weekend!

145.6

Further explination needed?

No?

I have coveted after that 5 for so long. I weighed myself 3 times this morning thinking it was a mistake. I hope it isnt.

Im forever convinced that Wednesday weigh ins are my thing.

Ill forever remember what I weighed on my 30th birthday. Ill find out. On Tuesday. Right around the corner.

Im still writing small drafts of my story. The hard things are coming to the surface so its taking a little longer.

Thats okay, I was under my pre pregnancy weight this morning. Almost 3 years in the making. Go me! Somthing to make me smile and see outside of this funk Im in.

Even a funk that makes a person plan her own bday party. Yeah you read that right. I AM planning my 30th bday party. Someone has to do it....right?