Back at Work

This really doesnt seem real, it doesnt seem like I should be here, I am unmotivated so far :( I love my job and cannot see myself sitting at home all day but when you have spent the past 6 weeks with a newborn non stop it just seems so weird to be back at work. Part of it is that I dont know where to start.....what do I do now kind of feeling? I work from home a little this week and I dont know what to take home with me to work on, I guess I will pull something together before I leave.

I left Andrew at daycare this morning for the first time, it went well. I went in a little early and fed him since I had to wake him up before we left so Tim could get him ready. He was such a big help to me this morning I felt like he did it all. While I got ready he made the bottles and dressed Andrew, it was really nice actually. Then we all headed off at the same time. I went down to visit him late in the morning to see how he was doing and he was as happy as he could be. He had just eaten and he was so alert and happy.....he smiled at me for the first time an actual social smile not the gas smile. I just read in my book that social smiling should start this week but dont be upset if it doesnt. He had really been trying all weekend to smile and i would coo at him and he would try and I am so glad he saved it for today! It really did help me to have that milestone happen on such an important day.

Well while I have been gone I now have a new boss....my how things change quickly when you are away. I meet with her on Thursday....that should be interesting maybe I can prepare for that tomorrow while I am at home. I am kind of bummed I had just gotten used to my current boss and now I have to start all over again, comes with the territory I guess. Things will work out.....I feel the sluggish time of the holidays coming everyone already has that I need to check out attitude here lately.

I signed back up for Sparkpeople this morning. Time to get back in the groove of things. I am pretty sure I can control my eating but the one thing that will be tricky is finding time to hit the treadmill in the evenings. I will have to get us all on a routine in order to get serious about it. I have 20 lbs to lose maybe a little more and so I figured it helped me last time I can try it again. I need to measure myself which I am scared of. I want to see the inches fall off this time and not just the lbs. I wish I knew how many inches I lost last time to compare.

Speaking of Christmas above I really need to start making my list and getting ideas together. we are planning on spending T-Giving in OH so I wont be able to shop this year with Jordan like normal. Meaning I have to start sooner than later. Tims 30th Birthday is coming too and I just dont know what to get him.....that is a tough one! As of now we have plans with friends to go out to dinner and a comedy club but other than that I am clueless. I need inspiration!

We unfortunately have to go to the hopsital tonight to see my grandma, she had knee surgery last night so we are taking Andrew up there to see her for a few minutes this evening. I need to stay longer but there really isnt much I can do, she is on pain medication most of the time. I need to find out when she will be coming home so I can go and move things around for her at home so she is more comfortable. That was a scary call last night. I will upate soon on how she is.