Im having a hard time with my body image. It isnt the number on the scale or even the inches. I know those are easy to lose but I am going to put this out there.
I have stretch marks from AT, and a pooch in my stomach that is so baggy I just dont know if it will ever go away. I can see now why people get tummy tucks.....how in the world does that flab go away? I tried to find a pic of myself in a bikini but couldnt.....you know it is prob best I didnt I dont need to see that right now.
Weight loss does make me happy but the crap on my gut being gone would make me happier. I now wonder how in the world celebrities have multiple babies and dont come out scared like I did. I literally think I will have this forever.
I even went as far as asking the doc if my uterus was all the way back down to normal bc it just blows my mind that sometimes I can still look a little pg if you look at me the right way. VERY depressing. This is just something that I dont know if I can come to grips with. When will it go away?
I am pretty obsessed with this right now and trying to keep a good vibe out there, but with pool plans coming up and knowing I can not wear my old bathing suits anymore just bugs me! I knew I wouldnt be able to but I dont even want to show my stomach or hips bc of the scars I have. I guess a tankini is in my future but I hope I can find one that will hold me up upstairs.
This is a whine post I know but it is starting to really get to me. It cant get any worse with my next child.....can it???
10 months ago
2 comments:
I feel you 100%. I SERIOUSLY wonder if the pooch will go away. :(
I totally feel you - Mustela Stretch Mark Cream is a godsend. Trust me. I didnt get marks until after Alex was born but wow - I cried over how bad they were. They are G-o-n-e, gone thanks to Mustela. Worth the $40 investment.
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