Summer's Here!

Along with the heat! The calendar says we still have 3 weeks until we can officially call it summer but boy it sure feels like it outside. So much so we hit up the pool Sunday and yesterday too. We joined a community pool ths year and I cant wait to spend my weekends there. AT has a ball. He just hangs out in his little float and watches all the kids play.

There is something about a pool that just puts me in vacation mode. After we spent a few hrs there Sunday we headed home so AT could nap. We decided to go ahead and fire up the grill and Tim made some killer margaritas! I know I shouldnt have but as I said "pure vacation mode". It was so nice to cut loose and not feel like there was a care in the world. I have a feeling the pool was a good choice for us this year....we just need something to help us unwind. There is nothing like coming home catching a quick dinner, getting on your bathing suit and hanging out with the fam at the pool on a week night. Small peice of paradise....even if others share in. Its still nice. I had no idea I would enjoy it this much.

I posted lots of cute pics on AT's blog so check out the rest of them there.




We had a great weekend too. We started with dinner Friday with K&E, and then some new friends on Saturday. We also had them all over for drinks and desert Saturday night. The kids had a ball! Again see the full recap on AT's blog.

Weight Update:
Well Ive been doing as well as I can wearing my pedometer. I just cant seem to keep up with my steps from day to day. I seem to never remember to write them down. So for now wearing it is still motivating me. I am def moving more at work thats for sure. Im going home usually with no less than 3,000 steps. Which doesnt sound like a lot but I still get in another 4,000 on the treadmill and the other normal steps I take at home in the evenings. I would say I average btwn 8 and 9 thousand steps. Not the goal I hoped for but Im new at this!

Im being honest....not sure who I tried to kid with the scale post. I didnt put it away, Im so bad. I swear I think it holds me acountable too. Im still on it....sometimes more than once a day. I cant help it. I almost wish I didnt have it, I didnt back in 2006 when I was a weight loss junkie. Sometimes I just feel like I cant rely on the one here at work. Anyway my Tuesday weigh in was 151.5. I dont think it was all that bad...still not back down to 150 but better than 154. I did really well this weekend with food. I enjoyed myself a little too much Sunday (vacation mode) but made really good choices yesterday.

I wasnt able to get a huge workout in but like I said above we hit the pool so I was able to get some swimming in. I left AT with Tim and did several laps around the pool. I may get a waterproof timer if I make this a weekly thing. I would love it really. I would look forward to it much more if I were in the water instead of on the treadmill. Water does not sound like work you know?

I have thought alot over the weekend about how hard of a time I give myself sometimes. I constantly feel like when I get home that I am rushing too and from something and "Oh Ive got to get the workout in!" I need a breather. Im not giving up and Im not bowing out I promise. I just need to stop beating myself up over it and breathing it in and obessing over it. I continue to tell myself that I will get there, I have made great progress so far, and it takes time. Realistically I only have about 5.5 more lbs to go bf Im back at pre pg weight and then another 6 for my 2nd goal. Im kind of tired of worrying about the number on the scale too. I just want to look healthly in pictures and not cringe when I see myself in them, and fit better in my clothes. They fit.....but it could always be better you know.

I am motivated and I am committed....but this constant battle is making me crazy. I need to enjoy my son and not worry so much that I have to work it off all the time. I know I need too and I will for him it just wont happen overnight. Im not perfect and I will lose my balance sometimes but if Im careful 85% of the time I should be proud of that too. I dont know where Im going with this I just wanted to put it out there.

I just go back and forth all the time. One minute Im thinking "Im healthy, Im a mom, and I need to have a little fun and let loose, I wont get this time back". Then other times Im thinking "I really need to get my ass in gear, this chub isnt coming off as I stand here doing laundry."

See what I mean its a constant battle. Im taking the more relaxed approach. Meal Plan, workout as much as I can every little bit helps but if I need to cuddle AT bc he doesnt feel good or if I need to fold laundry at that second instead of get on the treadmill so be it. If you got this far...bless you.