Cmas 2006 - At my lowest weight: 138. I had worked my butt off that year and felt pretty good. I was in a 6 and loving life. It lasted for another year. Then of course came the pg & my sweet AT.
Next up is from last week. Im sitting at 151.4, this after my detox from the weekend. We celebrated our anniversary, I had a MNI, and just not enough water all around. So yeah....my 10lbs by 30 isnt going so well so far.
My question is - can you even tell a diff in the pics? I guess you see more of my hips in the last one but I feel like 13.5 lbs should show more....I guess I have on good jeans ;) IDK Im kind of grabbing excuses right now as to why I cant get on my treadmill. Lots of them have to do with AT. I feel so bad with the fall weather and all the yard we have to keep him cooped up inside when we could be enjoying our yard. I walk the yard a little too but he wants to follow me etc etc etc. The excuses go on and on. I just want my motiviation back!
Where is it!?!?! & dont get me started on eating. I used to think I did so well at work but I honestly think I do worse at work then I do at home now. Im sneaky and its just not funny anymore. I need an intervention when I comes to work lunches. Im seriously thinkng of leaving my wallet in my car everyday while Im at work on purpose. If I dont have access to money I wont get anything. My complaing is so drawn out I wont go into it. For some wicked reason Im ready for winter so I can chain myself to the treadmill, jillian, or some other torture device to make me sweat - or just to feel some source of accomplishment.
So if anyone is actually reading this...tell me do you notice the 14 or lbs missing from the first pic? I promise to do a bit of soul searching soon and work on this....Im becoming pretty bitter. I feel like Ill be in the best shape of my life when the kids are gone....but who wins in that scenario?
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