148.4

Okay Im not ticked but maybe a little bummed. This 148 - 150 thing is REALLY getting old.

Looking at my timeline -----> over there Im right where I was in Jan. I dont know that Ive lost much since then. Ive certainly gained.

Ive felt comfortable in my skin this year. My clothes still fit. I look pretty good in a tank and my mom bikini on the boat. But we always have a number in our head. I number that plays mean tricks and causes us to always want more.

I may have made a small change that Im hoping over the next month will help.

I sit in my office pretty much all day. The only time I get out is for lunch, the potty or a meeting. I used to try and bring my lunch. You know the low fat lean cusine type meals. But then Id feel this NEED to get out of my office. I had to go to the cafeteria to get something else. I needed to see people and interact a little. Then Id get there and see several things that looked good and Id get 2 things. Mybe they were veggies maybe it was soup. Who knows but Id add it to the already 300-500 calorie lunch I brought. Id eat it all. Bc A. I felt like I needed to get out of my office, and B. Bc I thought I needed a little something to go with what I brought, like it just wasnt enough.

Crazy? I know! So Im stopping right now. Im not going to bring anymore frozen meals to work. Im just going to eat in the caf. Ive done really well not eating desserts from there. I realized they were just too large of a serving and my pockets were hurting from it. So now Ill go in and maybe see 2 veggies I want, or a soup that sounds good and just get that. So I dont feel like Ive wasted my frozen meal. It has to save me a little along the way. Calories and money.

So heres to another month. The hardest month of the year. Im going to be human and have a good time this holiday season. I can maintain obv Im good at that but the challenge will be to get a little more off. I want my goal to be small. If I can get to 145 in a month thats progress. I guess in a way I wnat this to be slow so my body can maintain a weight and then its used to staying there then Ill try to lose a little more hoping for the same results. Im doing the best I can as a mom, wife and a full time employee. Thats all anyone can ask for.

So for the now the scale is put away for another month. Its prob the best thing to do for my sanity. I used to like weighing every week only now Ive figured out when I weigh the most and when its accurate so whats the point right? Wish me luck.

Oh & Happy Early TGiving! This year I truly have SO very much to be thankful for and luckily Im spending the wonderful holiday with about 6 of those Im SO very thankful for!