Im having a hard time trying to figure out where to start actually. The main characters weave in and out so much and there is so much to share. Believe me its still weighing heavy on my mind.
I sometimes wonder if I dont need to begin therapy. Just because I feel like Ive never gotten it all out. Out on the table.....to SOMEONE. Anyone I think would be therapeutic. Im not saying I want to dwell on all this bad stuff I guess its just like skeletons in a closet that my closest family doesnt speak of much they want to forget about it and move on.
But its such a HUGE part of me. & I think about it everyday. Mainly Ive come to realize bc Im a parent. & I wonder if my mother reacated to things the same way I do. I try and get my frustration across to AT and he doesnt seem to get it. I wonder "did she deal with this too?". I know she did. All parents do. Maybe Ill begin drafting and see where it leads me. I guess I just need to start from the beginning, tell a few stories from what "I" know. I dont claim to know it all just bits and peices of what I have gathered along the way. So I guess Ill go back....back to my Gma S's story & share a little of it. Bc like I said it all weaves together.
My office at work has recently been moved to a new location so Ive been a little preoccupied with it. But my story is coming.....Im ready for it. I dont know who reads this blog & I really dont care. Its for me anyway, I just let a few people in ;)
2 comments:
Everyone has problems...unfortunately you can't pick your family since they are usually the root of the problem.
I hope whatever it is that you find some peace. I could write my own story or 10 about my crazy bunch! ::hugs::
I've been working on writing about some random things that weigh me down as well. I think it will be therapeutic. But I can also attest to how nice it can be to see a professional therapist and get advice on how to deal with certain skeletons.
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